Silent Sunday

Five Minute Writing Workshop

*This is my weekly writing whatever is in your head for 5 minutes post...

I haven't been able to focus on a single thing this week hence the lack of blog posts. My head is full of thoughts spinning around like the wheels on a gambling machine in a Vegas casino. I have the occasional cherry dropping into place but never a full line that makes a kerching, winning noise.

I have a craving for the sea. The smell of  it, the way your skin feels when you have been wind swept for the entire day. The smell of tent canvas, candyfloss, hot dogs, suntan lotion. I'm looking forward to the crunch of sand under foot whilst dragging an 8 year old, deck chairs, the camera, the beach games, towels and a picnic across the beach looking for a sheltered spot so we don't freeze our backsides off! 

I remember from my exotic holidays as a youngster the highlight of the evening being fish and chips and then a 20p game of Bingo. As this is a highly underrated activity, I shall this week be encouraging my daughter to continue with such exotic-ness. We shall also sample such delights as spinning on the waltzers until we feel sick, stuffing our faces with hot sugared donuts, riding donkeys and building sandcastles.

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I would definitely recommend that you try this whether you have a blog or not. Five minutes of writing without thinking, no judgment, no topic prompts, just anything that falls out of your head.....I'm actually finding it extremely therapeutic.....leave me a comment if you publish yours and I'll make sure to pop over and read it :-)

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Silent Sunday

Five Minute Writing Workshop

*This is my weekly writing whatever is in your head for 5 minutes post........actually this week it should probably just be the 'whatever is in your head' post because it took me allllll day and once I got started I couldn't stop..........

I've had a real blank with this today and have been sitting staring at the screen for at least five hours. My brain is coming up with blanks because everything that I WANT to say would really upset people. I'm not in the business of causing trouble (generally) so where to go from here.........

My current Facebook status says:

Emma is thinking that actually life is too short and I need to start doing exactly what I want to do.....  Now this isn't exactly news to me as I kinda try and live this anyway, but a few things have happened in the past few days that make me want to rebel. I can't discuss them here but what I can say is although I'm not done with being polite and friendly, I'm done with dealing with other people's sh*t because life is honestly just too short.

I will no longer conform. I don't care what you think of my tattoos, my taste in music, the clothes I'm wearing, the men I want. If you have an issue with any of these things....it's YOUR issue. Yes, I will still wear a suit for work and look smart but I'm done with.......... covering up my tattoos, dating men that I don't care for but that you like, apologising for my weight, my attitude, apologising for the fact I still grieve for my Dad after 17 years, the way I live my life.

My life is mine. It is nothing to do with anyone else, I am answerable to no-one apart from Chick and as I'm now 35 I will be putting my foot down. My family and everyone else can say what they choose about my weight but the next time they mention it, I will leave......their house, the restaurant, the family gathering. The next time ANYONE mentions Chick's size, height, weight I am going to lose my temper in a big way.......so try and make sure it's not you that brings it up because do you know what? That girl is completely NORMAL and I won't have any of you fucking up her life in the way that you did mine.

Tomorrow I'm having a new tattoo and unless I ask you directly, I do not care for your opinion on it. If you hate it??? Oh well......it's on my wrist not yours. Still have a problem? Refer to the above paragraphs.

If anyone wants me, I'll be........... at a rock festival, at the tattoo artists drinking Jack or rocking out with my air guitar and my gorgeous daughter to Pantera or even being Emo kids alongside My Chemical Romance. 

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I would definitely recommend that you try this whether you have a blog or not. Five minutes of writing without thinking, no judgment, no topic prompts, just anything that falls out of your head.....I'm actually finding it extremely therapeutic.....leave me a comment if you publish yours and I'll make sure to pop over and read it :-)

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Tracks of my years

I feel the need to write a whole post about my misspent youth and how I still fancy men with long hair that wear eyeliner but I don't seem to be able to form the words to write a coherent post.....maybe tomorrow. 

In the mean time I'd like to share this song with you that completely reminds me of said misspent youth and my awesome girlies that helped me misbehave back then. I saw this band on Friday night for the first time in twenty years and they were A-M-A-Z-I-N-G and still VERY hot.........

Silent Sunday

Five Minute Writing Workshop

*This is my weekly writing whatever is in your head for 5 minutes post...

I wish I had a magic wand and could make everything fall into place for you. Not to stop all the hurt and the pain because if you don’t go through that, how can you ever appreciate the times when things are good and the happiness that goes with that.

If I did have a magic wand, I would just change this one thing for you. I know that life at any given point is a culmination of all the choices we have made so far and you have made your choices but when you are stuck between a rock and a hard place it doesn’t make anything easier.

Would my magic work and give you your heart’s desire? Probably not but I wish you could experience the joy, the sickness, the pain, the agonising decisions, the stroppiness and the absolute, unconditional love that is on offer.

I wish I had a magic wand and could make everything fall into place for you.

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I would definitely recommend that you try this whether you have a blog or not. Five minutes of writing without thinking, no judgment, no topic prompts, just anything that falls out of your head.....I'm actually finding it extremely therapeutic.....leave me a comment if you publish yours and I'll make sure to pop over and read it :-)

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Lollibop Festival - The Big Bash for Little People

One of the unexpected things about blogging is the amount of amazing stuff that we get invited too and the different experiences that we get to partake in. The first weekend of August we are thrilled to be going to:

Chick is excited but I'm almost bursting at the seams. Although it's billed as the big bash for little people, I think there will be more than enough to keep me entertained as well.....who needs Glastonbury when you can go to a cool festival like this!!?!

So far some 'big' names have been confirmed including Rastamouse, Dick and Dom, the Zingzilla's and Peppa Pig. I'm sure that they will be cool but I think that one of our highlights will be meeting and watching the Horrible Histories crew as it's mine and Chick's favourite programme. Sadly enough we know a lot of the songs off by heart!

Our second highlight will undoubtedly be the Roald Dahl museum and storytelling, as again we are both big fans. Mix that up with the Science Museum Live, DJ classes, Go Karting, Fairy classes and pizza making sessions and I think that we are in for a rocking time!!

Lollibop is being held at Regents Park in London from 5th -7th August and tickets start from £18. If anyone is interested in joining us, we are going on Sunday 7th with Me, the Man and Baby and Kerry so the more the merrier :-)

*Disclosure - I have received a family day pass for the Lollibop festival.

Dear So & So

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Dear Chick

I cannot tell you how proud I am of you this week. Your school report was awesome but what I'm the most impressed about is how you've really buckled down and doubled your efforts since Easter. I'm also really amazed with the way you are handling all the crazy that's been going on in our lives this week. You rock kiddo.

Love you to Jupiter and back

Mum

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Dear Chick's Dad Girlfriend

Soooooo, he told me that you had Googled me and found my blog. Welcome and Hi! I just wanted to tell you how thrilled I am that you have been so accepting of Chick and for the present that you sent her this week. It touches my heart that you so obviously care. Look forward to meeting you next week.......although I'm a bit scared too :-)

Em x

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Dear Traffic Wardens across the land

Fu*k off and get a proper job you miserable So & So's.

No love in the world

Emma

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Dear Hotpoint Man

I could almost kiss you for repairing my washing machine.

Love 

The smelly lady from Leicestershire

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Dear Mr.S

I keep telling myself that three days until I see my new BFF isn't so bad :-)

Em x

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Dear Lovely Readers

Please say Hi to my lovely new sponsor Kiddicare and then head on over to Kat's place to link up with Dear So and So. Have a great weekend.

Love

Adventures of an English Mum

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Five Minute Writing Workshop

*This is my weekly writing whatever is in your head for 5 minutes post....although I'm not entirely sure WHAT is going on in my head or where this came from.................. 

My brain is full of mush and I have a one track mind (not about that.....get your minds out of the gutter!!). I'd forgotten what it's like to feel sick and happy all at the same time. To feel that peculiar drop of the stomach, almost like you're on a rollercoaster, as I catch a glimpse of you in the distance. 

The anticipation. Oh my god....the anticipation. Sometimes I feel like I can't wait another second and so I try and revel in the feeling so that I don't lose hope again. I love how easy things are when we talk and it's like we've known each other forever, when in reality it's only been hours, days and weeks. The talking is non-stop, discovering each other, our common denominators and the ways in which we are poles apart. We never stop talking, yet as soon as we are apart I think of a million questions that we didn't yet get around too.

I find myself staring across the table at you wondering how you got that scar, why you didn't shave this morning, if your wrinkles are happy ones or put there by stress. I want to drink it all in but I also don't want to share that I'm feeling this way. That sounds odd, like I want it to be secret. Its not that - more that I want you to be for me. Like a belated birthday present but without the pink bow!

What I love the most is the way I feel when I'm around you. You make me feel beautiful and interesting and like a whole person again. Not just a mother or sister or friend or a grade A crazy nutter with lots of issues but a whole person who is just being herself and has hope again.

I wonder how you see me?

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I would definitely recommend that you try this whether you have a blog or not. Five minutes of writing without thinking, no judgment, no topic prompts, just anything that falls out of your head.....I'm actually finding it extremely therapeutic.....leave me a comment if you publish yours and I'll make sure to pop over and read it :-)

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Silent Sunday - 03.07.11

Waiting

I feel like I'm always waiting.....

for pay day

for school to finish

to have time off work to breathe

for the phone to ring

for things to fall into place

to have enough money

for decisions to be made on my behalf

for things to be better, me to be happier, the house to be clean

and then I sadly realise that whilst I'm waiting for all this, life is passing me by

Chick is getting bigger

I'm getting older

my garden grows and I can't control it

my house doesn't stay tidy for more than 10 seconds

I am loved

my friends and family are awesome.

I may not be perfect but I could not ask for a better life.

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I wrote this after the CyberMummy workshop with Sophie King. One of her exercises on the day was to just write. So I did......