*This is my weekly writing whatever is in your head for 5 minutes post....although I'm not entirely sure WHAT is going on in my head or where this came from..................
My brain is full of mush and I have a one track mind (not about that.....get your minds out of the gutter!!). I'd forgotten what it's like to feel sick and happy all at the same time. To feel that peculiar drop of the stomach, almost like you're on a rollercoaster, as I catch a glimpse of you in the distance.
The anticipation. Oh my god....the anticipation. Sometimes I feel like I can't wait another second and so I try and revel in the feeling so that I don't lose hope again. I love how easy things are when we talk and it's like we've known each other forever, when in reality it's only been hours, days and weeks. The talking is non-stop, discovering each other, our common denominators and the ways in which we are poles apart. We never stop talking, yet as soon as we are apart I think of a million questions that we didn't yet get around too.
I find myself staring across the table at you wondering how you got that scar, why you didn't shave this morning, if your wrinkles are happy ones or put there by stress. I want to drink it all in but I also don't want to share that I'm feeling this way. That sounds odd, like I want it to be secret. Its not that - more that I want you to be for me. Like a belated birthday present but without the pink bow!
What I love the most is the way I feel when I'm around you. You make me feel beautiful and interesting and like a whole person again. Not just a mother or sister or friend or a grade A crazy nutter with lots of issues but a whole person who is just being herself and has hope again.
I wonder how you see me?
----------------------------
I would definitely recommend that you try this whether you have a blog or not. Five minutes of writing without thinking, no judgment, no topic prompts, just anything that falls out of your head.....I'm actually finding it extremely therapeutic.....leave me a comment if you publish yours and I'll make sure to pop over and read it :-)
----------------------------
I would definitely recommend that you try this whether you have a blog or not. Five minutes of writing without thinking, no judgment, no topic prompts, just anything that falls out of your head.....I'm actually finding it extremely therapeutic.....leave me a comment if you publish yours and I'll make sure to pop over and read it :-)
